Yes, I am. But I don't want to kill you, Captain. But if you leave me no other choice, I won't hesitate.

[No, believe him, he doesn't really want that. Meanwhile, Lelouch observes warily how the other man reaches for the drawer.]

I've got my reasons. You wouldn't go there, you'd think it would be a journey of a madman with no chance of success. You have something to lose-- your family.